Subconsciously

Collaboration by Indie and Miss Sub

every night I kiss my demons
as they permeate my subconscious
pushing me gently to my knees
where I must submit
and give in to the whore
I don’t want to be

chastity, oh so Holy
oh so lonely
I tremble at the idea
of hands and lips
devouring my resistance
to the things I crave

and I am not a woman
who needs to be saved
but
I do need to be depraved
and enslaved
in one way or another
and even in the quiet
when your hands touch my face
they rape
a confession out of me

for I am everything you want in me
and everything I desire to be
laid bare
an auction of debts from the soul
that keep us ritually displayed
and I want so much
for every fantasy to be true
but dread in my subconscious
that I am indeed
becoming you

it’s here that I want to turn
and run
shake myself free
of these desires that plague me
and tease me to ecstatic musings
beyond all pleasure
I’ve ever known
and am yet to know
all I have to do is
stop.