Diary Entry...Huh

Im tired, my moms on Hospice...well she should be but she still has yet to say the word cancer stage four and sign the papers, so she's refusing the end of life care she needs, which makes it a confusing situation on the family.  
Then two days ago my grandma on my dad's side had a heart attack, and after 2 units of blood and bipap machine to restore her oxygen levels, she went back downhill again, hemoglobin a 7 and now they are thinking she has lymphoma or leukemia.
I know everything happens for a reason, I'm just tired, and this is hard.
Its taking all I got to keep everything up and running between three houses.  
My own house looks like trailer trash at the moment, I just don't have the time right now.
I watch bits of current events on the news, as for all the drones? Well now, didn't we also have a balloon a few years back they wouldn't dispose of? So yeah, they know exactly who is controlling the drones. Or maybe it's all just an illusion with the AI technology they now have...don't panic! 😉  
Besides, whatever's gonna be will be, or maybe the shit that has happened in my life has just created an expectation in me that in this life the scarcity of good barely exists, so always expecting bad things allows one to just give a short huh...then do another dish.
I know we will all die one day of something, which reminds me, I need to stop swearing.  
I find when my frustration level reaches its peak, my sailor mouth is its release valve.
Gonna work on that.
I heard a man say maybe the drones were looking for nuclear warheads, he said one came in from Europe and they don't know where it's gone. Lol
How do you just lose a warhead?
Huh...as I wash another dish.
I don't know, good luck and God Speed everyone.
Lord, please help all souls on the face of this earth, let them love, forgive and most importantly remember their Creator...you.
Oh yeah...and please help me control my sassy mouth.  
Love,
Anna ❤️