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The World Continued Today At 6:37
i wish you told me in september
when the stars were still quiet
and we had infinite time
it would have saved you
less self-hatred
less agony
i am glad you told me now
but i will not let you leave
because you are wonderful
i could never hate you
i could only ever be hurt by you
and the hurt would be
by you fading away
so don’t
you are nothing like him
you are safe and warmth
and the first i have ever felt safe with
i don’t tense up when you are
behind me
and i know you would kill for me
i know you would never do anything
to hurt me
and i had a feeling
that you were feeling
these feelings
i detected it in the way the light would shift in your eyes
but i said nothing
because i did not want you to leave
and you said nothing
because you did not want me to leave
we would never leave.
i did know.
i don’t hate you.
i love you always.
when the stars were still quiet
and we had infinite time
it would have saved you
less self-hatred
less agony
i am glad you told me now
but i will not let you leave
because you are wonderful
i could never hate you
i could only ever be hurt by you
and the hurt would be
by you fading away
so don’t
you are nothing like him
you are safe and warmth
and the first i have ever felt safe with
i don’t tense up when you are
behind me
and i know you would kill for me
i know you would never do anything
to hurt me
and i had a feeling
that you were feeling
these feelings
i detected it in the way the light would shift in your eyes
but i said nothing
because i did not want you to leave
and you said nothing
because you did not want me to leave
we would never leave.
i did know.
i don’t hate you.
i love you always.
Published 15th Nov 2024
| Edited 17th Nov 2024
Author's Note
now i read certain words differently in a perspective i didn’t want to believe was true. and as i read them i hurt so deeply, only because of how horrible you are to yourself. there is nothing wrong with feeling. i forgive you. so now i cry reading them, feeling you in the words, wanting to go back in time and say itsokayitsokayitsokayitsokayitsokay and iforgiveyouiforgiveyouiforgiveyouiforgiveyou.
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