Kind Sadismus

Guide my hand mandating me to torture myself
turn my eyes towards you
A smile that feels like being pushed away

You suddenly awake wildly
desperate begging for help
ease me saying it's okay
while don't stop the other hand

I know it's there
hold me that dominated by fear
desperately clinging to you
satisfied with my voice moaning

Kind Sadismus
A room can only ask for help to the offender.
blurring by tears, can't see well
but I can only say one thing
You are smiling