I'm a terrible god

When you OD
they'll say it's my fault
if I was just a better person
if I was just a better mother
you wouldn't have turned to drugs

They don't know
that we've talked about this
that you don't don't blame me
for the path your walking

When we break
this joke of a bloodline
won't hold my family together
no love lost on me
when I've always been
the one to blame
for everything
especially the choices of others