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Queen of Pain
Hear my prayers
Your claws in me
That deadly stare
I can't break free
Behind your smile
I met my fate
Held on trial
Love turned hate
My Queen of Pain
You stole my soul
Through black rain
You took control
Your claws in me
That deadly stare
I can't break free
Behind your smile
I met my fate
Held on trial
Love turned hate
My Queen of Pain
You stole my soul
Through black rain
You took control
Author's Note
Many years ago I was in a relationship with a girl who was a bit of a narcissistic and didn't realise at the time but was very coercive.
There was no violence from her but all my friends I had, I was constantly told, don't talk to them, why are you talking to them, female friends I worked with, the same, don't you ever talk to them or I won't be happy.
My Mum whenever she rang, she used to stare at me, get off the phone, I had limited contact with them at the time, this was just to make her feel happy, she practically used to dress me.
I'm generally a strong, happy, positive person, so I came out the other side but my advice would be to any Woman or Man if you encounter any of these behaviours, try and get out.
There was no violence from her but all my friends I had, I was constantly told, don't talk to them, why are you talking to them, female friends I worked with, the same, don't you ever talk to them or I won't be happy.
My Mum whenever she rang, she used to stare at me, get off the phone, I had limited contact with them at the time, this was just to make her feel happy, she practically used to dress me.
I'm generally a strong, happy, positive person, so I came out the other side but my advice would be to any Woman or Man if you encounter any of these behaviours, try and get out.
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Re. Queen of Pain
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- Edited 21st Oct 2024 10:43am
21st Oct 2024 9:23am
You have carved the depth of the message in just few words. Great spill 👍👍👍
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21st Oct 2024 10:46am
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21st Oct 2024 9:26am
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21st Oct 2024 3:30pm
This resonates so deep with me, Pete
I once experienced this same kind of 'individual'
Tried to isolate me at every turn.
Not playing victim, I knew what she was about from the beginning
But I also warned her...God has always seen me through.
Much respect on your hindsight
Naaj.
I once experienced this same kind of 'individual'
Tried to isolate me at every turn.
Not playing victim, I knew what she was about from the beginning
But I also warned her...God has always seen me through.
Much respect on your hindsight
Naaj.
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Re. Queen of Pain
21st Oct 2024 7:54pm
Re. Queen of Pain
21st Oct 2024 8:01pm
No physical blows may have been struck, but what you describe is such abuse. Glad you're out of that situation!
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21st Oct 2024 8:07pm
Thank You Willow, it was for about 18 months, you don't realise it at the time or until the end but one of those life experiences that hopefully makes us stronger ❤️
Re. Queen of Pain
21st Oct 2024 8:13pm
I'm encouraged by wise counsel as I reside on the counselor's couch. A+ Hugs and love, Oral
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21st Oct 2024 10:31pm
Re. Queen of Pain
22nd Oct 2024 3:37am
Brilliantly written, Pete. Into the list it belongs. Doesn't sound like the best of times. Appreciate you.
DL
DL
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22nd Oct 2024 11:57am
Thank You Damian, I have big shoulders thank God but I've seen it happen to others and left then a nervous wreck unfortunately ❤️
Re. Queen of Pain
22nd Oct 2024 9:12am
Terrifying. I'd broken free of several intense emotionally abusive relationships - but it's left me very on edge.
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22nd Oct 2024 11:58am
I'm sorry to hear that Lawrence, other people I know, the same thing with them unfortunately ❤️
Re. Queen of Pain
22nd Oct 2024 11:46am
Words like this need to be read 💕
I come out of a relationship with a man with a narcissistic personality disorder, it was a severe case of abuse. It took me years to heal from. About a year ago (almost 8 years after I ended it) I was able to date again and let someone new in. This got quite personal, but everything is on my page already 😂
Thanks heaps for sharing such a personal piece 🙏🏻
I come out of a relationship with a man with a narcissistic personality disorder, it was a severe case of abuse. It took me years to heal from. About a year ago (almost 8 years after I ended it) I was able to date again and let someone new in. This got quite personal, but everything is on my page already 😂
Thanks heaps for sharing such a personal piece 🙏🏻
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Re. Queen of Pain
22nd Oct 2024 12:00pm
So sorry to hear that Duende, during it, you must think you're the only one but then later find out you're not the only one ❤️
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22nd Oct 2024 3:36pm
Well, the only thing I know for sure is that I was the only one. We both have gone through a traumatic loss, which caused a domino effect. We only had each other, so somehow we were destined and doomed to be together. It's in the past now... and it made me stronger 💕
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