Uncertain Path

The uncertainty
Making it hard to see
Through the darkness
How can it be?

It's cloudy
My future, I mean.
I'm worried
I'll never achieve what I can be.

I know it's
Not set in stone.
And that's what worries
Me so.

I want it badly,
More than I could ever know.
Then why is it so hard
To find a way to go?

To go to my future,
my rightful place.
To find all the hardships
I must eventually face.
To go to the sky,
where all dreams take place.
Why is it so hard to find a race?

A winnable race,
Not the race of life.
Some way to achieve,
And not to strife.

Because try as I might,
And as much as I do
I can't seem to find
The clear path I drew.

Every day’s a nightmare
and every night's a daymare,
Thinking about how I'll end up
and how my future will fare.

I'm afraid about the future,
and I'm scared of my past.
Maybe this happiness;
will it never last?

Last forever,
Like the stars to the sun.
I must keep on pursuing,
must keep up the run.
I'm running so fast
I'm scared
will it last?

My future is in last,
Last place it seems.
Over everyone else's
Society deemed.

Maybe I'm not good enough,
Maybe I'll miss.
Cracked thorns of doubt
Spiraling around my wrist.
I'm scared that I can't,
I always think.
My dreams and future
are starting to sink.


Please…