Don't Ignore the Flags. Damn.

I speak on what I observe  
Do not take it personally  
I do not speak as such  
To be taken so critically  
 
Personal experience  
Is not what makes up my philosophy  
For such data  
Cannot be used  
To develop any theory  
 
Encounters are rudimentary  
Illogical in all empirically  
Composed evidence that should actually be taken seriously  
 
You criticize the words I breathe  
Claiming I would dare speak for thee  
I tell all  
Explicitly  
Not withholding honesty  
 
Concurrently  
 
This first date  
Did not travel peacefully  
 
Firstly,  
Don't ever try to pressure me into a wordless kiss  
You fucking missed  
That remiss action will never yield promise  
I find men that try to force and take like this  
Flip the script  
Dress up their diss when boundaries are faceted  
 
Which you did  
 
Secondly,  
I should not have to explain  
I just got out of a long relationship  
For you to boldly take claim  
 
How dare you imply long term isn't what I'm looking for  
Not allowing you to piss on my leg and claim what's not yours  
The way you handled me was much like a bully  
And sit  
Let me tell you  
There's nothing worse than that in this bitch  
I tolerate none of it  
 
That being said  
Yes I changed my mind  
I didn't go to your home  
We had a month to try and get that close  
Go on our trip  
But you had to push and claim I initiated  
Something I wasn't willing to finish  
 
Were you not trying to touch me  
Relentlessly  
And I allowed a bit  
Now you claim you weren't trying to get into it  
Man you are full of shit  
Notice  
You mentioned this was not your intent  
Accusing me of accusing you  
For not going alone to your place when we just met  
See the manipulation tactic?  
 
You knew we were moving too fast?  
Why didn't you say so?  
Now that things have slowed  
Now I guess it's worth letting me know  
 
I'm not in the interest of purveying education  
And this is just a small list  
You know you were pushing while I had reservations  
And I allowed what I thought  
Was a lonely man's attempt  
For companionship  
Not an immediate ownership  
 
I’m not an idiot  
I know when someone cannot handle empirical evidence  
While lording over the population with pompous intelligence  
That doesn't present itself  
When logical argument is prominent  
 
Lastly  
Do not tell me what I can say  
I told you I think on all planes  
So even if you're not finished  
And I express a thought  
Jumping down my throat…  
Process my reasoning  
You will not  
You just want a yes or no  
And not a word behind comprehension  
My God  
This was a nightmare, I hope you take this into consideration  
 
You're insecure and how you behaved today points to that  
No one so quick to anger has the knowledge to back  
 
Ever  
 
I composed myself well and you acted like a child  
Go find some young idiot to defile.  
 
 
 
 
 
Ps. A man that knows everything already lost the trail to wisdom. I'm not awaiting a response. Thank you for the meal. I wish you let me pay, as I asked and you said ok, but still pulled out your card. I get the power play. I come from an old machismo family and they showed what the implications of such social rituals are in any capacity. Any man that doesn't respect my wishes is out. You also had to ask me twice if I wanted to see you before we ate. I should have taken that as a sign that it was you who wanted out and I had a strong feeling you wouldn't be able to help yourself and get angry cause we didn't do what YOU wanted. Something tells me you enjoy the manipulation and control. It's why you tried to touch me so much so fast, knowing I was reserved, then continuing anyway. You can blame me for allowing it but any man worth his salt knows when to back the fuck off. In essence, this whole shitty poem can be simplified into one single conclusion; I don't believe you. Sorry for jumping the gun on New Orleans. Could have been fun letting things unfold naturally until then. But black and white thinking is the epitome of ignorance.