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between the words we don't say
Let's not talk about this
so you can call me a liar
so you can bury yourself in denial
I don't need your validation
the truth won't set anyone free
and I'm not sure I want to
hold that gun to anyone's head
least of all my own
I can't change our world
with self-righteous violence
and you wear the victim
with all the pride of a horror movie
make-up artist
ripping the very real throat out
of an imaginary woman
Don't speak
don't make it real
someone might tell you
it's your fault
like you told me it was mine
Let's not talk about this
so you can call me a liar
so you can bury yourself in denial
I can't save us from the past
so I carry it instead
with the promise
that next time
someone twists the knife
I won't be the one to die
I won't kill myself like you did
only to phoenix myself into a ghost
with the trembling smile
of generational trauma
re-perpetrated
So why does this silence
make me feel like a victim?
Let's not talk about this
so you can call me a liar
so you can bury yourself in denial
I don't need your validation
the truth won't set anyone free
and I'm not sure I want to
hold that gun to anyone's head
least of all my own
I can't change our world
with self-righteous violence
and you wear the victim
with all the pride of a horror movie
make-up artist
ripping the very real throat out
of an imaginary woman
Don't speak
don't make it real
someone might tell you
it's your fault
like you told me it was mine
Let's not talk about this
so you can call me a liar
so you can bury yourself in denial
I can't save us from the past
so I carry it instead
with the promise
that next time
someone twists the knife
I won't be the one to die
I won't kill myself like you did
only to phoenix myself into a ghost
with the trembling smile
of generational trauma
re-perpetrated
So why does this silence
make me feel like a victim?
Let's not talk about this
Published 1st Sep 2024
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1st Sep 2024 3:55pm
1. Grieving is a part of the healing process, so please don't allow anyone to tell you that need to move on, move forward, get over, let go, process it, get rid of it, etc.
2. Grief is an iceberg with an entire landscape of valid emotions. You have the right to feel all of them, and decide the if, when, and how you process them outside of projecting the pain onto others.
3. You are not responsible for how others perceive your grief or how it makes them uncomfortable to see you feeling it. You do not have to hide your grief to make them comfortable around you. You do get to decide who has access to you while you actively grieve and the kind of support you want or need during this season.
4. Relationships change when grief arrives at your heart. They must. They have to. You are not the same person you were before the grief. You are allowed to change. You are allowed to evolve. You are allowed to question and contemplate all relationships in your life and discern which relationships are supportive and helpful and which relationships are no longer in alignment with what you now want for your life. Relationships can change for the greater and better, and sometimes some relationships end.
5. Lean all the way into Love. Lean all the way into the tears, and allow them to form a river to take you into the Ocean of Love so vast, so deep, so healing, so profound, so deep within your own heart that the taste of this Love consumes the emptiness and fills the depth of that aching with an all-enduring, all-encompassing, all-endearing, all-accepting Love of Aliveness in such a way that every breath transcends the illusion that anything could ever destroy Love.
6. Continue to share your words - they are a testament to the healing journey toward Love.
Peace and Love.
2. Grief is an iceberg with an entire landscape of valid emotions. You have the right to feel all of them, and decide the if, when, and how you process them outside of projecting the pain onto others.
3. You are not responsible for how others perceive your grief or how it makes them uncomfortable to see you feeling it. You do not have to hide your grief to make them comfortable around you. You do get to decide who has access to you while you actively grieve and the kind of support you want or need during this season.
4. Relationships change when grief arrives at your heart. They must. They have to. You are not the same person you were before the grief. You are allowed to change. You are allowed to evolve. You are allowed to question and contemplate all relationships in your life and discern which relationships are supportive and helpful and which relationships are no longer in alignment with what you now want for your life. Relationships can change for the greater and better, and sometimes some relationships end.
5. Lean all the way into Love. Lean all the way into the tears, and allow them to form a river to take you into the Ocean of Love so vast, so deep, so healing, so profound, so deep within your own heart that the taste of this Love consumes the emptiness and fills the depth of that aching with an all-enduring, all-encompassing, all-endearing, all-accepting Love of Aliveness in such a way that every breath transcends the illusion that anything could ever destroy Love.
6. Continue to share your words - they are a testament to the healing journey toward Love.
Peace and Love.
1st Sep 2024 5:57pm
No, u. Well written. Concise. Could be written about me. I don't actually know. Visceral, aggressive, well worded. Good show.
1st Sep 2024 9:37pm
1st Sep 2024 9:06pm
Craftsmanship plus substance.
It takes tremendous concentration to study the fire you're sitting in.
Always worth reading.
It takes tremendous concentration to study the fire you're sitting in.
Always worth reading.
1st Sep 2024 9:38pm
1st Sep 2024 9:33pm
A lot of truth packed in this short poem worth exploring. Hugs and love, Oral
1st Sep 2024 9:38pm
