Nothing

I told another caseworker I had yesterday that if I'm honest with myself...my favorite part of my day is when I know...I can do...nothing!

Not talking.

Not writing.

Not exercising.

Not cooking nor eating.

Not attempting to learn a new skill...

Nothing. Nothing at all.

Sitting up in bed watching the world go by or sleeping. The only way my mind truly feels at rest.

But thankfully, I feel at rest right now even though my mind still wants to criticize.

It wants to tell me everything I'm not doing right.

But as I'm doing more and more mindfulness, I realize I'm okay with the thoughts. The thoughts are like a bee buzzing in my ear that I can let fly away if I let it be.

I went for a walk, adding in some runs into it. Afterwards, I felt super good and energized. The whole time, I was actively focusing on my accomplishments. Not even giving much thought to the wishy washy statements. The statements that said, "Yeah, I did this, but I could have done this, this, and this."

Nope, I did what I felt what was best at the time. Nothing wrong with that.

Nothing wrong with that at all.