AS LIFE'S SHELL SPIRALS TIGHTER STILL   (1990's; Galveston Island, Texas)

       
       
as life s shell spirals        
tighter        
ever more tightly around me        
with each passing day and night        
my life itself and i        
both seem and feel        
to be coiling in a spiral        
deeper        
ever more deeply        
towards some mysterious        
unforeseen        
perhaps unseeable        
unknown end        
which lies in silent  stealthy wait        
both before  behind and beyond me        
trapped deeply  somewhere within        
some long held  
subconsciously buried        
suffocatingly crippled ruins        
which occasionally leave me stumbling        
blindly into some        
long forgotten  self suppressed        
ghost like  inner childhood sense        
still much too distant and vague        
to clearly recall here now        
yet still entrancing my mind and thoughts        
with the fleeting attention        
of  faintly buzzing hummingbird wings        
widening the open possibilities        
of almost everything else        
unknown  forgotten  self suppressed  unseen        
hidden within        
behind and beyond        
even the high frequency        
equally fleeting  dream like spell        
of those mysterious  unseen        
faintly buzzing        
blurry hummingbird wings themselves        
which i increasingly keep on        
more frequently sensing        
faintly hearing and feeling        
here in my senses        
my head and my being        
within  behind and beyond        
even here      
in this      
my present        
ongoing life s        
temporal experience s      
existentialist      
illusory journey      
within  without      
beyond    
any and all    
possible    
logical    
common sense    
or intellectual    
evidential proof of    
nor common man s    
egoic mind s    
unawakened    
shallow    
need to know    
what my own    
long awakened      
intuitive body    
mind  heart  spirit    
being and soul    
each and all    
already now    
for oh so very long    
have always sensed    
and felt    
experientially    
lived    
and spiritually    
known  
beyond mankind s  
blind ego mind s  
greater mass  
free will quest s  
prideful  lost species
perpetual
need to know  
and yet  
despite all that  
through it s old  
dead end path s  
half assed approach  
which inevitably  
results in  
as so easily  
and obviously  
can already be seen  
these days  
the majority of  
still unawakened  
mankind  
not ever    
truly coming  
to know  
that greater truth s  
fully awakened  
much bigger  
ineffable  
picture s  
enlightened  
truth  
at all
which
regardless
of all that
and everything else
we and all things
still nonetheless
already
ineffably
are