Numb Little Bug

Do you ever get tired of life?
With thoughts,wild at night.
Do you ever wish you were free?

Or be someone else entirely?
Like you are alive,but not there.
And you don't want to die.

And nobody seems to share.
And I just want to see if this will make me happy.
I'm tired of pretending I care,when I don't.

I have sympathy,it's true.
Surely,you can see it too.
But at this point ,I don't feel a single thing.

From the medication I had to count.
I tried everything to heal.
It's like I want to shed a tear.

But at the same time,I don't.
Like I am on a sinking ship in a sea far away.
Where nobody can find me.

Or take me away.
Where nobody sees me for who I am.
But I am a numb little bug.

I am trying my best.
But this world is too big.
And I don't know what to do.

I feel like a numb little bug.
And I really need a hug.
I'm tired of quick repairs to cope.

Like I have to keep trying,in order to survive.
But I'm just a numb little bug.
Wondering if you feel the same.

Or if we share the same name.
In this world,we try to be tame.
But there's so much in my head.

And I never seem to want to leave my bed.
Do you ever feel a little bit tired of life?
Like you are happy,but at the same time not?

Do you ever feel overwhelmed?
Or like beginning to rot inside?
Now listen,I'll tell you why.

I'm like a numb little bug,I can't deny.
I try to keep positive and fly.
But I have no wings.

I just want to be happy.
Loved,whole.
Alas,I'm a numb little bug.

And I really need a hug.
One day ,I'll fly away.
And I won't feel numb another day.

As music begins to play.