pain

my grief is deep I am so alone here
I see suffering and I don't know what is real
I have flashbacks and I hear the voices saying all the beauty is gone
and I am left abandoned

I came here to save my son and I saw others in need
for love I sacrifice my dignity
I build of my blood a place for him to free of their thought

I with will alone made him a pretty place and we were happy and free
false judgement was far away with its hypocrisy
my son a mad genuis and an artist so excitedly he took to the freedom

wild of spirit I encouraged his genius only helping where he asked
companions of his spirit grew with him
but there was a fear inside me I kept covered

that they would discover our paradice and destroy it
so beautiful the peoples born from his loving portion
then one day we were discovered
and they destroyed what his life force brought
and stole part of him away from this place

I saved their essence and hid them away
his beautiful people and his idea of utopia
free the royal court and their judgement

you see I had not tempted my father
in a rage he thought to keep madness prisoner
and did a dreadful thing to me

my boy is not at fault this is the place I make my last stand
he was never a problem child he didn't bring hate here they did