The meaning of me

Far away
from a life that was
I had job and cats and sex
and my shoes
in neat little rows
high heels to practical flats
I loved the normalcy of life
comforted by the routine

Until I saw a spark of the divine
hiding in the corner of a stranger's eye
for once seen
could never be unseen
infectious longing and desire
hoping to discover something more
and find the meaning of me

So much has changed
since that apocryphal day
living within the chaos of life
everything is different
yet still seems the same
my cats are still fat
I started rock climbing on a dare
my friends are all real
along with the meaning me