10 Seconds

Determined I stare in the mirror          
Reflective thoughts were never clearer          
These subtle words I soon share          
Will leave you speechless but aware          
Of my thoughts and my intent          
My life of lies caused this descent          
My broken heart and shattered dreams          
Intoxication drugs and all that seems          
The attempts I tried to drown my pain          
Medications swallowed left me insane          
I hid from life in this disguise          
But now it's time to expose my lies          
The guilt I have and rage I feel          
Love that's hollow was never real          
But here I am face to face          
With my reflection I'll soon erase          
I deserve to see what happens next          
My heart beats outside my flesh and chest          
10 seconds that will change my life          
From the sheath I grab the knife          
To my neck across my throat          
I cut deep this my antidote          
Pulsing heart and watered eyes          
Blood exhaling is my demise          
Watching myself bleeding out          
This ending I deserve there is no doubt          
Staring at impending death          
Choking out blood my final breath