I'm Fucking Sorry

This depression seems endless, it's like wave after wave
The feel of ending it all is what i honestly crave
I'm sorry i couldn't make you happy like i promised
I'm sorry i hurt you cuz i just couldn't be honest

Understand that i love you in every sense of the phrase
And seeing your warm smile always makes my day
I wish i could've shown you what i'd always see
I wish i could express how much you mean to me

But now you're walking away from all we ever had
I've never wanted to hear you say you love me so bad
Will you ever be willing to look at me the same
Knowing i can't call you mine has begun to drive me insane

I know i fucked up my only reason to live
Even after i gay you all i ever had to give
I'll carve your name in this bullet so you'll always know
You were the last thing in my mind before i let myself go

I know i don't deserve another second chance
I understand why you left me without even a glance
My ears are screaming for the sound of your voice
I'd kill to go back and make the right choice

I miss how you'd touch me in the heart of the night
I miss how you'd hold me when i was too weak to fight
You always calmed my fears and put a smile on my face
I'd give up everything to be back in that place

But now you're walking away from all we ever had
I've never wanted to hear you say you love me so bad
Will you ever be willing to look at me the same?
Knowing i can't call you mine has begun to drive me insane

I know i fucked up my only reason to live
Even after i gave you all i ever had to give
I'll carve your name in this bullet so you'll always know
You were the last thing in my mind before i let myself go

I can't deal with this pain all on my own
You're the only relief that i've ever known
But now i've lost you forever, so i have to find
Another source of reliefe so i don't lose my mind

I know i fucked up my only reason to live
Even after i gave you all i ever had to give
I'll carve your name in this bullet so you'll always know
You were the last thing in my mind before i let myself go[/font][/font]