Rage

I ..
am at a place where Karma meets formal education
as my soul unfolds for the duration
of time..
No-I am not okay nor am I fine  
because somethings in life have just crossed that line
Between my safe place and my comfort zone
I feel like Im sick of the worlds bullshit
and I DO wanna be left the fuck alone!
because the world keeps moving with no regard or concern
Inside me a fire is brewing and I intend to let it burn!
As the elders spirits shake there heads
and ask "child what have you learned?"
At this I give pause...only for a minute
as I contemplate breaking some jaws and laws
Now that I found out the Wizard is fake  
While he's in the bar drinking with Santa Claus
Reason being...
I learned you can't believe anything you hear
and even less of what you're seeing
Life I was told is as simple as breathing
as I lay gasping on the floor  
that's what I get for believing
For believing in some fairytale bullshit  
My stress in monumental and I have no way
Of relieving it...
They say well fake it till you make it
then the damn goverment comes and takes it
in taxes..got my whole universe  
spinnin on its axes
NO matter how I slice it bills STILL
have to get paid...and at the end of the day
I still cant get layed...
Due to a lack of good canidates
they all want the pussy before the first date
Then they wanna call a woman a hoe
I am not dealing with this bullshit anymore!
I wanna flip the script right after I get
this buzz go fuck him HARD then tell my girlz
what a slut HE was...
but my feminine self wont allow me to convert
Nor otherwise... subvert
into a lower level of thinking
or behaving....yet I am still craving
Some form of vindication
I have worked 24 years without a vacation
I've had 1 too many storms in life ...
Now my soul has lacerations
and these scars are not healing...
So I sometimes smoke trees just to deaden
this feeling
Im not asking for understanding..
Im just venting today...
and I hope that soon...
I loose these feelings of RAGE