Winter Of '94'

I stepped out of the warm car into the bitter cold this morning, and it was like my own personal whirl wind came to chariot my heart through the tree tops, and whisked me instantly to the Blizzard of 94. I literally broke down right there in that parking lot, my heart pounding and tears flooding my eyes. For a split moment, I was a child again, bundled up in red boots that laced all the way to my boney  knees, toboggan itching my head from running and sweating while I was playing in the snow, as we climbed about in our ice fortress. You see, my grandpa had spent all day carving huge blocks of snow with a machete just to build us kids an igloo, and when he was finished we hung our heads out the window while Grandma took pictures.    
Where did time go?  
The cold this morning even laced with the aroma of the cold of that day.  
By night fall, we had destroyed every icy chunk of workmanship he had put into it.  
Yet there he was, squatting, his tiny body perched above his knees, with nothing but his old army jacket and orange toboggan, smoking his cigarettes and smiling as we demolished and rolled in his work of art. Lol  
He was such a quiet soul, stern, and always took care of his business properly.    
I miss him.    
My grandpa was good with everything he set out to do, I didn't understand him much as I was growing up, but now as an adult looking back, I remember when he worked hard planting the trees that lined the edge of the road, I remember when they finally grew tall enough for me to climb limb by limb to the top.    
Then today, I realized just how much I never noticed how I love to hear the winter wind rustle through the high branches, bringing me a memory that actually aches in my heart with love and longing.  
I actually hate death, I hate time, and I hate that I can never go back and, I don't know, say thank you?  
My grandma wants to cut those trees down, after today I think I'll beg her not to, but if she does, maybe I'll take the wood and turn it into a music box with a snow globe on top.