forgot about this in drafts

 
pain is a great teacher
but listening to others is too
I mean really paying attention
I've never been good at reading cues
body and language and the likes

my mother was different so she taught me differently from birth
so to this day when I'm afraid you won't see it
I will laugh in the face of adversity
not because I think a situation funny
but because it's a coping mechanism
my spirit will also employ alter egos
to speak for my feelings
they are fear or anger based usually

there is real no good place to let go of anger
I try to push up and out to space with my spirit
and I think to release it there
but the soul of souls reminds me it is still energy displaced
meaning it all goes somewhere

I think of Chernobyl
and I worry that me and my family are losing our hair
not just us a lot of people
I mean that energy went somewhere
space is radioactive I've learned
the history channel says Mars used to have an atmosphere
and that our sun is stripping it of it resources
that it once had technology and people
it's that old technology tree in the garden

I've always had visions of the future
but I look to the skies and I wonder
how to take the negativity outside
when you're tethered to the earth
I will find a way to express my truth
hopefully without troubling you guys
a genuine smile can lift up a lot of people
I will do my best we are all on a soul journey