Innuendos of the Infinite

 
Innuendos of fate
spider webbed with the universes
jeweled with knowledge if we partake
painfully evident if ignored
some things I wish I've never learned
like how to hate

Laced throughout time and space
is a truth in understanding the difference
would I have ever known scald if not for the burn

Touching the fabric of existence I disturb immortal reverie
with my constant questioning
I wonder at the vibrations I send
rippling on the timeline

Will my star burn bright and then not at all
a blackhole stealing mass to feed its own need?

Eternally wandering through the cosmic libraries seeking
the honesties of our creator
are some things better left secret

I wonder does he regret me
where does one go to truly forget things observed
I am a pupil of Omni Potent
studying His movements
I take note of his creations
some of them disturb me greatly

I take my own thoughts captive
they seem foreign to me
Are they mine or another vibration
caught in the larger web of life?

I'm part of the eternal struggle
now burning with questions answered
Still, on a quest for the hidden answers
perhaps not meant for a vulnerable mind

I get angry sometimes
when truth revealed is more than I can handle
Then humble again
with the knowledge somewhere I fit
the universes are interactive to our choices

For our Father is the infinite