Mother Dearest

It is said, that when the student is ready
the teacher does appear...

And so you did in the winter of my 6th year
when the judge smacked the gavel at half past 2
so began my journey ..into learning
how to survive
you.

With your sick demented tricks
you were so quick to make my skin
thick
Brazing my skin with leather belts
wooden boards and all types of shit

trying to make me believe that I deserved
to be whipped because YOU drank too much
and couldnt handle it  
You were just a thief ...or a bandit
escaping off with my youth red handed
As my heart filled with smoke
cause you burned down the framework
of my soul...
Damn...
you molested me when I was 8 years old!

You were a sick twisted bitch...evidently
Parading around like a pillar of society
You were a Schoolteacher and everyone
looked up to you,but behind closed doors
noone knew the freaky shit you'd do

You were a wolf in sheeps clothing
a demon in the flesh
You were a spiritual defiler
You were my greatest test

You called yourself my mother
but I knew you as a monster
you might as well a been hiding
under my bed or in my closet

and do you remember that day in the summer
when we suffered in the sweltering heat
and you got drunk that day
and burned my skin like I was ground beef
heinous were your crimes
and great were your atroscities
as you tried to  make people believe
that you loved me..and I was the reason
You had to breathe...

You were my "Mommy Dearest"
you were the greatest challenge I ever had
You are the reason that my life
has taken strange and brand new paths
and now you've past away
and Im not sorry that youre gone
I know you thought you'd break me lady
But look ....
see you were wrong!
I rose above your beatings and bleedings
and pain
I rose above the mental anquish
that almost drove me insane
I rose above your hateful words
that once bound me
I graduated from your school of hard knocks
With a Motherfuckin PHD!
Now I know you're
somewhere in hell
Wondering where it is that you went wrong
But its obvious to me..you thought I was weak
When In truth I was strong.

You didnt expect me to dig in deep
but then again ...maybe you did
Its just a damn shame you had to go insane
and do all that shit to me as a kid
But its okay ...cause Im a grown ass woman now
I overcame and I'll never be the same
As I grace the world with my poise and style

You taught me some tough life lessons
But Im so glad I learned
Now I hope you are in hell
getting your OWN flesh burned