I Died

On Oct 18 a surgery was set  
All hell went wrong and my grave was met  
Oct 25 another go round    
As the doctor with a God like complex put me down. No blood! What! we can't honor that!    
Your going to died that's a fact!      
The doctor said it's a two hour surgery that's all it will be      
3 months in the hospital and 1month rehab for me Never been so lonely not even a call.      
"The Bible says the dead are conscious of nothing at All!"      
Doc said "you coded, you refused blood!"    
I said your unprofessionalism ran my life through the mud.      
4 months earlier.      
I remember drifting away, high on Dilantin and then      
I heard him say..    
you stupid women!      
Your going to died!    
I screamed at him    
No! not I!    
before you cut me with that knife, think of 1000 ways to save my life.    
A women step in and said I will.    
Please don't give me blood it's my decision still    
3 months and I survived    
That dreadful day Satan wanted me to die    
Doc: "How are you" as if he was a kid.    
He stared in amazement to see me Alive      
Remembering my swollen body as I died, tubes everywhere, and a pic line in my neck.    
he played no part in the healing, no effort in effect.    
Doc: Your lucky to be here!      
Me: see I appreciated life,      
this fight was hard    
and I got sick of Watching you Play God!      
I can't walk now my leg is so weak, his careless effort to save me    
I did beat    
my hands shake and stomach aches too,    
my heart has arrhythmia and cold like symptoms are over due    
But I hold to the true God that's always been mine.      
Even in this condition    
I'm doing fine    
Take life for granted?    
That you will never see    
No Doctor gets the praise of saving me.    
So all those who through out my life    
who wish me to die    
I thank Jehovah    
you was not by my side    
I learned to only depend on him to stay alive    
When I was left alone suffer and die.