Chaos

My life went backwords
Filling voids not really there
The falls ran backwords
Emptying my soul too scared
To admit the truth
I am still a ghost in life
Fighting for love
That never was by my side
Lost my immediate family
I grieve to this day
I am devastated fully
My sanity fell by the way
Suicide blinded me again
So young, so innocent
Could I have saved her
The guilt never relents
Every day I am hit
I struggle to hold on
I have no excuses
Only my present to go on
If you can hear me
Desperately need a sign
Life is moving too fast
Running out of time...