Chasing The White Rabbit

One pill makes you larger  
And one pill makes you small  
And the one mother gives you  
Don’t do anything at all  
Go ask Alice    
When she is ten feet tall- White Rabbit, Jefferson Airplane    
   
Always want what is not meant for me, not mine  
Look behind me, do you see those men, the vast line  
- admirers    
   
Dangle the carrot of aloofness, and no matter what the outside package    
My heart will drum like it’s pumped full of magic  
The white rabbit becomes my objective    
I walk away from all of the solids, cause my views are subjective    
Said admirers might have a plan that i fit nicely into  
Yet to the white rabbit I pay my debtors due    
Oh silly girl, whom do you chase?  
Years pining away, somehow a waste  
I have a bad habit  
I seek the white rabbit  
Shocked that I keep running on different variations of the same scene    
Chasing him, the elusive white rabbit, asking if I’ve ever been seen