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Longaevitas

middle age begins
the dance with death;
at some point, grandparents
are long gone, and now
the aunts and uncles each
step forward, as if eager to be
in line for the hereafter;
I realize now that I must have
thought they’d live forever,
a solid brick in the construction
of my reality

my icons have become
the memories I’ve shared
with their art along the way -
the song that was playing
on the jet black boom box  
in June of 1987, all the while
Edgar Esperello gave me that
slightly hesitant but otherwise
decent first kiss

heavy is the sadness
that just won’t
leave me, it feels
like an ongoing wound to the
heart that’s always slightly breaking
for the loss of time and touch,  
a wearing away of the
human foundations that built me

but there’s still hope here, yet
that all my best years are not
made of yesterdays, and
my best hours not sewn together
with rotting threads of regret

I now walk the path forward
alongside a strange sort
of bittersweet gratitude
for whatever has conspired
that brought messily to fruition
all the moments that catch
me unaware, remembrances
that flood my mind while
sitting in traffic,
or folding laundry,
presenting themselves in minutiae -
they’ve each made me whole
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