si dementia fuit amans

Man this is heavy and deep!!

just a thought
about the hurt
of lost love
and if it could just disappear

This aches so deeply...

some aches are so deep they are like knife wounds

Ohhh my... I feel this one in my bones....

Excellent poeting per usual, Colin
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Dementia is a tricky one. You keep what you keep and lose what you lose. The state you find yourself in may be worse and many things are still unknown as to what memories are retained, as you can't really ask, just surmise based on conversations that usually have nothing to do with the actual people in the room. It is a horrible disease. I wouldn't wish it on you, dear poet. Not to cure all the loneliness in the world.

Be careful what you wish for, lol. Memory will come & go, fade in & out as long as we are alive, whatever mental condition we are facing. I do all of the above of course, quite effectively in fact, with alcohol. I'm not suggesting that's the remedy because it certainly isn't. However, I do feel sad for you, reading of your frustrations in love here. I feel in the same club & very much relate, actually.

it was kind of a rant to myself
at my age i forget things but seems not the rihgt things

I'm always ranting to myself but only when I'm not busy ranting at others, lol. I'd rather rant to myself to be honest cos at least that way, no one gets hurt, right? Thanks for your response. Appreciate you. :-)

im not a great engaging
but i go through stages when i make an effort

in that stage at the moment