After Forever

It's been a while
By a while I mean years
It's been forever
since I've loved another
Honestly speaking
I don't know how to do it anymore
How to 'get to know someone'
How to consider anothers schedule
Man I don't even know the pace anymore
I don't know how to open up
I don't know to go with the flow
I wasn't even a flirt to begin with
I just know how to be me
For some reason others liked what they see

Every once in a while I think 'this is it'
Yet somehow I will find a reason not to continue
I'll end things quickly to not inflict a deep wound

So I don't know

How does one love again after forever?
Is it even worth it to disrupt the balance I have now?

Last time I was left broken
The pieces have been put together
However the cracks haven't disappeared
What used to be flawless is now glued together
So is my heart still of any value?

I've watched a few walk away since
I've watched them find happiness elsewhere
So really we avoided wasting each others time

I don't know how to get back into the game
I think I'm afraid of being hurt again
Because I know I take forever to get over things

I just choose to walk away from it all