First Step

Leaves turning now
And the rivers run grass green
Freed with no hesitation
Kinda like my life

How could I love this
When you squeeze all I have
Sometimes it takes this
Saying goodbye

When it’s all gone
What gives you strength
Who helps you up when you can’t

You say many things
Contradict yet somewhat true
There’s a hate in the way
You lay in silence

You don’t love yourself
Take and take, give nothing back
Everyone is the enemy to you
Especially those close

When it’s all gone
What keeps you standing
When your throne has no supports

Rolling on the floor
Broken glass, label facing
Lost it all and you can’t even see
It’s the mess you made

I wish I could hate you
Spit the venom and break you
But my heart won’t let me
Instead, I forgive you