breaking the mold

 
 
I've never tried to
stop the amusement
park inside my head
 
open 24-7-365 days  
a year,
no down time or  
holiday's off
 
cotton brain candy
 
caramel covered
neurotransmitter
apple's with or  
without nuts, but  
mostly with nuts
 
serotonin rides that
spin, dip, occasionally
break down
 
and a midway of
memories disguised
as a freak show you'd  
have to see to believe
 
trauma--
 
you are a real  
motherfucker
 
and thanks
dad
 
the humor of
your violence
was never lost
on me
 
because as it
turned out,
the joke was  
on you
 
you thought you
were teaching me
a lesson of obedience
with your fist
 
but you were
wrong
 
I learned the lesson
of free will and self
determination
 
and became the
thing that you  
feared the
most
 
my true
self