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You injected fire into my veins
So I could feel something
Hijacked the chemicals in my brain
So I could be normal and sane
Everyone likes the new me
But I don’t feel anything
I tried to bury my thoughts
And now I’m laying in a grave

This isn’t what I signed up for
Their approval isn’t satisfying anymore
 
The yellow walls are murdering me
I needed a break from reality
Not a brand new identity
You said this would finally make me happy
Satisfaction guaranteed
But I only got more suicidal tendencies

Anesthetized to the horrors of my mind
I’m empty without the voices
Screaming at me all the time
At least I could feel high before
Now I’m a walking corpse
Performing for the world
I miss my twisted passions
Everywhere I go I leave some ashes

I’m desensitized to everyday life
But there’s still a thousand knives
Stabbing the backs of my eyes
I hide behind a cold metal stare
My heavy head is breaking my neck
And I really don’t care