clouds

i watch my hands shake.
i'll take anything,
to make the hurt stop.
the world around me fades.
smoke fills me,
so i float away.
my eyes turn red and dilate,
i create things,
that don't exist.
fog slowly fills me up,
my pain leaks out,
into the sky.
i feel like i can fly away.
i want to stay here,
full of clouds.
i start to fall down.
slamming hard,
into the ground.
the clouds rain down my pain.
i get soaked,
and scream.
without my cloud i'm broken down.
i need it to live,
and to breathe.