Mr X

You met me at my worst yet you still came to me, it did not matter, you were curious.
A public setting, a group event. A very innocent outing. Or so I thought...

You took my hand and made me revisit moments past. The good times and the bad .I was instantly smitten...

Your hazel eyes penetrating deeply into my soul, your clever wits and philosophical words, your soft and warm embrace and your whole approach to my messed up world was what turned me on..

Taking time to feel rather than do
Putting extra meaning in songs we enjoyed and analysed together
Talking for hours on how we would make the world a better place, for us, for others...
You made me notice the Little details and small things in life, that made me happy.

Oh and of course the surreal attraction between us... that ethereal energy that is so necessary for me to reveal myself to anyone.

After all this time, all I remember is how you made me feel and I feel deeply....

I have tried to forget you, hell I've even shared a whole relationship with someone so different to put what we had behind me to protect my aching heart after you left my world.

I've tried to run from you, promissing myself to never go back to the places we've been together. I realize now that no matter how far I move, I still carry you with me...
My heart still aches,
Problem is, no one is you...

I feel no matter what angle I take, to figure out how my next love interest is going to look like, no one compares to you.

At the risk of sounding completely cheesy, I am now holding out for someone i'm proud to love and who is proud to love me back in spite of all my faults.

Maybe such a person does not exist, maybe i'm asking for too much, maybe i'll be alone for a long while, who knows...

Untill then, I am sending you love and kisses...