Blurred Lines

I'd say I'm sorry I never gave you my best,
But I was still a child when I was put to the test.
Those storms came and I folded while we both screamed
Unable to hear each other as the nightmare took over our dream.

I look back now on the things I said and did.
I hardly recognize that girl you were with.
How did she get there and how did I get here?
I can't make the connection, can't see through my fears.

The past haunts me even on my brightest days
Those storm clouds in your eyes have me permanently dazed.
Though I look around at all these blessings and thank God I escaped hell,
I left a part of me behind as I rattle in this hollow shell.

How do you forget the ones who held you at your darkest?
My darlings you are the ones who I've loved the hardest.
Social media screams self love and fuck the rest
But you're still here, a deep ache in my chest.

I love you.