Waking Up

She said,
"I used to be just like you
Feeling depressed
Trying to pull myself through
I used to smoke
I used to drink  
Now I have an air tank rolling around
Throwing up blood in the sink
I was young once too
Now, I'm in my 50s
My liver is totaled from the bottles
I don't think I'll make it to my 60s
I was a crazy bitch  
Did whatever I pleased
Now I'm looking back
Take it back! Begging on my knees
If I could change one thing
I would change it all
Like having sex out of anger
Just by making one phone call
There's a difference between  
Independence and being on your own
Wishing I hadn't pushed everyone away
And have done better than what I've shown
Understand? I was beautiful
Then I started snorting lines
I never thought I would ever regret
What I thought was the good times"