An Addict’s Sermon

 
sometimes I wish I could be
‘just a normal functioning adult’
whatever tf that means but
without the constant barrage

of relentless intrusive seductions
whispering
calling for me to answer their
beckoning

whimsies

an addict of many forms =
solutions { found } through
derivative ~ functions
and #formulas that
concluded results

such as such
addictive predications:

to use
to drink
to swallow
to spit
to starve
to binge
to cut
to burn
to bite
to bruise
to fuck
to lie
to steal
to hide
to scream

… t o  s i g h …
o r  e l s e  t o  d i e

to take the risk
that this
this
this
will finally put an end
to all of my suffering

…but it doesn’t
and never does
it just prolongs
the agony

I find
myself now
feeding in
to gluttony

I’m running tf
away from me

… l o o k i n g  a w a y…

because…
because we…
we all need

a little help
we just want
to be free…