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mentally relapsing

it comes and goes in waves
but i didnít learn how to ride
i was told to drown in them,
stay quiet, stay low.
itís so dark at night, even darker in my head
and there it goes.
i relapsed mentally
why did i, why did i do that?
too fat, too big, too much of me
gross, disgusting, sick,
it doesnít stop.
god, why doesnít it stop?
like i donít deserve the highs, the feel goods
no, i had to step on a scale
i had to relapse
mentally
and now iím overwhelmed with guilt
please
donít let me drown
Written by copingwithwords__
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