deepundergroundpoetry.com
Dinner Table
The worst time of the day is dinner
Being close to three people at a time
Everyone notices but they don't say anything
As I struggle to keep still
It's painful to be aware just how different I am
My days are filled with tears and dark fantasies
I can stop being a burden to my family
If I'm stupid enough
Why is it that talking through it gives me grief?
Haven't I lost enough already?
My faith is flakey, my granny's gone,
My interest's fading
I've been working so hard, my mind just needs an ice pack
Taking my vitamins and stealing rays
Of fickle sunshine
Go for a walk, it feels good
Maybe in a week
What am I? What do I have?
Must you be so vague about it?
Uncertainty will be the slow death of me
Being close to three people at a time
Everyone notices but they don't say anything
As I struggle to keep still
It's painful to be aware just how different I am
My days are filled with tears and dark fantasies
I can stop being a burden to my family
If I'm stupid enough
Why is it that talking through it gives me grief?
Haven't I lost enough already?
My faith is flakey, my granny's gone,
My interest's fading
I've been working so hard, my mind just needs an ice pack
Taking my vitamins and stealing rays
Of fickle sunshine
Go for a walk, it feels good
Maybe in a week
What am I? What do I have?
Must you be so vague about it?
Uncertainty will be the slow death of me
Published 19th Feb 2023
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
likes 0
reading list entries 0
comments 1
reads 374
Commenting Preference:
The author encourages honest critique.
19th Feb 2023 9:50am
Be a burden if you have to! I spent a life putting all others on top of me. Worst way to waste your time, let yourself be a little narcissist, even if you don't feel it.
I got diagnosed with OCD at 37 and suddenly all my life clicked! Were I used to think why,why, why me? The answer was because I let people walk all over me, just in case they accept what I couldn't accept.yself. Therapy helped me so much as well as medical treatment. Still got ways to go, but now I stand my ground and it took me less than 4 decades heheheeh
I got diagnosed with OCD at 37 and suddenly all my life clicked! Were I used to think why,why, why me? The answer was because I let people walk all over me, just in case they accept what I couldn't accept.yself. Therapy helped me so much as well as medical treatment. Still got ways to go, but now I stand my ground and it took me less than 4 decades heheheeh
