Cruelty has its own flavor and soul

 
I'm here rejected it's okay it's not the first time you left me cold and alone  
I ache in the loneliness of a goodbye that was never uttered  
just a cruel tearing away of part of my soul as you left that day  
 
you were so intricately a part of me  
I have phantom limb disease  
I still move to accommodate you  
 
I sung to you through the universes  
stood up to the bully that was yourself  
when all you could do was live off of your self hatred  
 
did you know it burned me too  
so now I take the blade and cut out the other half of my heart  
it still beats for you  
blood pumping sounding like drums, like thunder's last roll,  
is my last kiss to you  
 
hate me today, love me in private  
your entourage of lovers betray you  
loyalty at what cost?  
when bitterly there are so very few  
 
shame, is its own keeper,  
in the brutal agony  
with its own life doing handsomely  
claiming your name  
what a fool I've been  
 
counterfeit looters trespassed on my love  
I only knew your beautiful face  
my beloved immortal first born