ADHD The Undying Disease

When you look at my face,
it is just as ugly to you?
I’ve dealt with these feelings
far to long.
It’s been a long painful road,
with every days end another
nail is nailed in my coffin.
I wonder why am I so dead inside?
I hate myself so much that it’s unbearable.
Everyday leaves another scar.
I’m constantly stitching myself together,
but sooner or later there will be no more to stitch.
Then what?
There’s a zombie hiding my face,
I’m so faceless!
So expressionless.
Jesus, does anybody care?
There’s something hidden within me,
something cryptic, something I despise!
This pain is unbelievable,
sometimes I can’t bare it.
I bet no one listening even cares.
I can’t focus!
I can’t concentrate!
The ADHD is an undying disease.
The pages in my head keep turning,
uncontrollably.
It’s killing me!
You all don’t understand.
I don’t even understand it myself.
I guess I am truly messed up…