Locked away

I don’t want you to love me anymore  
And for all the times that we had  
I’m glad that we have grown so much  
And such as love that falls away  
  
I’m not the same person you once knew  
And you, much better than before  
But my heart died on my sleeve  
I’m left hollow and broken  
   
My life was different then  
When I was stronger  
But the longer that I simmer with the pain  
My brain will never heal  
   
My life was shattered  
But it never mattered that I tried  
I cried when I knew I could no longer deal  
The appeal just wasn’t what I imagined  
   
I lost myself  
I lost my soul  
Without control, I’ve become empty  
And he doesn’t understand    
Nor do I  
But the longing to feel is plenty  
   
I want to be happy  
I want to be fine  
I want to feel a lust that is blind  
I want to live again like that time  
That we were both settling in our prime  
   
I miss that girl I barely knew    
The one who kept her secrets locked away  
It has been forever and a day  
Since the outer shell of the box gave way…