immortal companion

 
rebellious heart I want to be happy today, so I will be
damn the judge who hung them high
it's not my place to pass judgement
revenge is human but I don't want that either
 
I pray for mercy for them
 
because I've found from experience
you my Father take vengeance in such a manner
that I recoil, feeling the punishment too harsh
I would have pity on them, you would have none
 
do you know I blame my existence, for their karmic pain?
 
yes, if I wasn't, there would be no need
I love too hard my Father
and really when it comes to love compared to you I am an infant
 
you manifest your word in the body of a men
I believe you are yet here among us manifest as human
how often I hurt your feelings with my callousness
I wonder if you will ever deem me a fit companion or am I too different,
a youngling never to mature?
 
my Father you have set me at odds with you
why provoke my jealousy
I don't wish to see
I look away and make happiness mine
you want me to look
see you in your darkness shadowed with grief
 
I don't understand you
you won't rape my mind and make me know
scenarios are designed to help bring me knowledge
 
real love doesn't just quit on you does it?
 
in any case I am being groomed to be your companion
I hope I am all you desire Sire