numb to the societal cycle

    
   
   
*sighs*.    you know; even if somehow magically miraculously-"love" was to hit me square in the heart; if things started to drastically change for the better....    
   
perhaps the depression would reduce, but i honestly don't feel as if i were to be any less pessimistic, or introverted....    
   
i watch attentively, and a lot of what I see are things being over glamourized, superficial matters, etc. social media like a pot of boiling grease....    
   
*sighs*.... i don't see what they see.... if i suddenly by some miracle had a significant other-i'd rather us both be low key than to blast our life on the screen....    
   
what works for most doesn't work for me....when i say, i don't belong here-this is part of what i mean....
 
 im way too laid-back for what's presented in front of me....