Sadist

 
somber is my love with a melancholy melody
it plays inside me this madness
I ache with the feeling I can't deny it
it drives me to distraction
 
I climb the notes then dive into it
you will never be mine
 
why encourage you?
 
I break a little from the knowledge
then reel in pain
it hurts in color
 
hard man, you are my undoing
I live in my musings,
my fantasies of you an I  
on some desolate beach perhaps
where there is nothing but us two
getting deeply acquainted
 
I wonder would I survive it?
 
or would you kill me in the end?
 
giving my last breath for your pleasure, nothing sweeter
masochistic until the last moment
a divine passage
 
dying for my Sadist