chocolate

 
I taste the sin and it burn my soul
I hurt in the torturous greed of a moment lost
or perhaps greeted it in the loneliness
took it to my breast and let it suckle

my love of you hurt
it was selfish and lied
I would never take the leap and I knew it
take the chance you could really love me
I ache with want, I wanted your love

I craved it

all the while the clucking blackbirds look on
they talk of mischief
they saw you touch another with me in mind
you would always seek beauty over me
in reality I was too plain for you
I was too impractical

my personality in color would get in the way
and I knew that deep down
I would bleed into your life and seep onto your white collars
making things messy in a tidy world

I chewed this bitter root
and wept for the loss of it
I would never have you
you would take me to bed your eyes would glaze
and it would be over
our beautiful union

with lies of omission
and chocolate