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desolate
did you feel my desolation of soul and pull away?
I weep confessions of the heart and mind
I don't understand why I hurt so acutely
keenly aware of my short comings
in tune with beauty and feeling awkwardly out of place
a nomad in a strange land
until you came into light shining on my stardust
making me glow with a radiance
in the warmth of your smile I bask
sighing deeply and inhaling your love
tender in it's presentation for my honesty
withheld if I was lying to myself
you pick me up off the ground and shelter my soul
I don't know why I do it
maybe out of fear...push you out
say mean things
I am inconsolable then
I crumble inside and ask myself why?
self hate perhaps
I don't like myself did you know?
I want to come to you blushing in shyness
bidden and desired
I want your love hard man
Published 16th Nov 2022
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Anonymous
16th Nov 2022 6:07am
Funny, I don't like myself either, did you know?
You always inspire. Your poetry, you, both.
[...]Love you.
You always inspire. Your poetry, you, both.
[...]Love you.
Your insights here run painfully deep, vulnerable to the bone, and thinly skinned.
In the theory of attachment styles, this phenomenon is discussed quite deeply and the underpinnings have been studied as if they were an elemental understanding of quantum mechanics.
The whys are various, according to that algorithm of thought. It is best to reverse engineer it as for its causality.
What can be said is that each psychopathology has its own mapping, and its own resolution.
Your attention to it points to its transformation under your control. A matter of habit, and therefore a matter of perspective.
Push pull is the nature of things. Surface tension is an augmentation of viscosity. Thus variability is an extension of valence.
Some elements are inert, say argon. It is naturally free in our atmosphere. It can be compelled into a tetrahedronal molecule, but it is not its first choice.
Water. H2O, is a natural fit, and it is not at all shy about it. They seem made for each other.
In attachment theory, your push pull ratio is its own natural sense. More push. But, your desire to communicate that pull has become so acute that you desire to not seem to reject. Push sends that signal.
This, toughness is required. Someone who is not thin skinned. Someone who stands alone in his own life without loneliness.
That is not a big ask for the right man. Lone wolfs. Polyamory. Poets. Painters. Philosophers. There are some who can honestly fit that bill.
If this is a case of physical as well as emotional pushing, signals of submission will bring out that dominance you seek.
Your asking, writing, or presenting that, as Goreans are apt to do, giving you that Amazonian demeanor in context.
The Red Sonja is a good example. She fights along side Conan. She kneels to no one. But she fits in the cradle of his arms.
Your writing is really engaging. You put the elements of the story in orbit. They are to be listened to....by others and by yourself.
You are revealing yourself to yourself. Push pull inwardly. You are a wonder, Woman.
In the theory of attachment styles, this phenomenon is discussed quite deeply and the underpinnings have been studied as if they were an elemental understanding of quantum mechanics.
The whys are various, according to that algorithm of thought. It is best to reverse engineer it as for its causality.
What can be said is that each psychopathology has its own mapping, and its own resolution.
Your attention to it points to its transformation under your control. A matter of habit, and therefore a matter of perspective.
Push pull is the nature of things. Surface tension is an augmentation of viscosity. Thus variability is an extension of valence.
Some elements are inert, say argon. It is naturally free in our atmosphere. It can be compelled into a tetrahedronal molecule, but it is not its first choice.
Water. H2O, is a natural fit, and it is not at all shy about it. They seem made for each other.
In attachment theory, your push pull ratio is its own natural sense. More push. But, your desire to communicate that pull has become so acute that you desire to not seem to reject. Push sends that signal.
This, toughness is required. Someone who is not thin skinned. Someone who stands alone in his own life without loneliness.
That is not a big ask for the right man. Lone wolfs. Polyamory. Poets. Painters. Philosophers. There are some who can honestly fit that bill.
If this is a case of physical as well as emotional pushing, signals of submission will bring out that dominance you seek.
Your asking, writing, or presenting that, as Goreans are apt to do, giving you that Amazonian demeanor in context.
The Red Sonja is a good example. She fights along side Conan. She kneels to no one. But she fits in the cradle of his arms.
Your writing is really engaging. You put the elements of the story in orbit. They are to be listened to....by others and by yourself.
You are revealing yourself to yourself. Push pull inwardly. You are a wonder, Woman.
21st Nov 2022 6:09pm
"I don't know why I do it
maybe out of fear...push you out"
this spoke to me.
maybe out of fear...push you out"
this spoke to me.
