I'M SORRY

From deep down my soul,
No fake deep
With all little strength left in me
Shame and guilt that I can't have my chin up
In the humblest tone
In the weakest inaudible rather struggling voice,
Forgive me.
I let them in clearly ignoring the signs
How could I speak so negative about you?
Loving them more than you
I mistreated you
Took your back back for more stabs
The days I didn't listen to your heart
Tonnes and tonnes of burden I let sit on your back and weigh you down
Attention I barely gave you
The extra mile I never went to make you happy
Bare minimums
The many times I wasn't there in your darkest days
The Ls you've been taking alone knowing I contributed to many of those
I regret not saying something to let you know we were lonely together
Then and forever
Least I could do was be kind
Days I went hard on you
Words I can't take back
Actions I never can undo or erase from my memory
I let your fire die down
I watched you, my flower, die
I let you go just like that
I've been miserable ever since I lost you
Thoughts of your return scares me
More and more attempts to bring you back take you further away from me
I want you to feel safe in my hands again
I promise you I'll stick around this time
Make it up to you
I'll keep the fire burning however cold it gets
No matter how dark it gets,I'm here to help light the way
I wanna be here so you never alone
Love you in ways you've wanted but never been loved before
Lean on my shoulder and let me dry your tears
I'll be strong for you
See your beautiful smile again and more often this time
See the light in your big brown eyes every minute of the day
Ignite fire deep in you once more and let it guide your path
Feel the breeze of positive vibrations and higher frequencies together
Losing you again is no chapter in my book
You have all my love