Alone In The World

Everyday,I want to die. People is what makes me cry.
Somehow I cannot apply. But why can't I just die?
All I tried was to fly,but people,all they did was lie.

They made me cry on purpose, when all I wanted was to socialize.
 I don't fit in, now I realise. I tried to, so many times.
But I guess I do not fit in. The walls here are too thin.

Everybody can hear you sin. Especially if you are on a screen.
Everything you do can be seen. They say my sanity is too thin.
 I hide my pain behind a screen. My fake smile is all that's seen.

 They say cutting is a sin. I say my skin is too thin.
Sometimes,I don't want to be seen.
Scared of the things I've never been.

All I wanted was to fit in, but I guess I seem like an alien offscreen.
My life hit me with a stick.
Ever since,my my sanity has started to break.

People always think I am a freak. But really,all I wanted was affection.
I never felt a real connection. I walk lonely on the street at night.
 Strangers give me a real fright.

 I'll sleep alone in my bed tonight.
I've never had anyone to cuddle all night.
 I fear I might die alone. Close to people,but nobody to roam.

 I guess I will just go home,alone.
 I will watch a movie and spend time with myself.
 Eating popcorn as I laugh with myself.

Watching the movie as I enjoy myself.
Reading the credits as I cry for help.
Nobody is here,and so I killed myself.

 I hope to go to Heaven,so I can ask for help.