All These Years of Sadness

All These Years
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"I have waited all these years"
she whispers in the night,
seeking solace  
from her life,
hiding from the light,
wishing to forget....
...her fear of
living.
A hard life
of broken promises
and a lifetime of regret
has
desiccated
her soul,
a dried and brittle thing,
but once,
a long time ago,
she  
was free,
dreaming endless dreams,
living in her fantasies,
but the dreams  
....just stopped one day,
leaving her with a child and endless need.
Now,
when time permits,
she whispers in the night,
one last  
dream
of eternal rest
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Give Me Sadness
-
give me sadness                  
and give me pain                      
for I will grow through grief                      
and transform sadness into rain                      
                      
I will laugh as the earth is renewed                      
cherishing this bittersweet mood                      
                      
weeping in mirth                      
and laughing in agony                      
I am finally alive                      
my spirit revived                    
                      
I walk through the shadows of my soul                      
parched desserts                      
and churning seas                      
to find ....                      
life is the same on the other side                      
                      
but I have changed                      
and everything is rearranged                    
                      
I see our laughter filled with grief                        
and our desperate attempts to flee                        
hiding from our sadness                      
choosing to live within our madness                          
    
with sadness and pain  
we choose to feel everything  
and though these trials our spirits grow                        
learning to love even in our sorrow