Talking to a hypocrite

Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m loosing my sense of direction.
Ive been craving some kind of connection.
Turning my face to the heavens for protection.

I’m afraid that you’ll never accept me.
In your eyes I’ll always remain unworthy.

When I don’t hear from you I get worried.
But when I don’t answer you go on carefree.

It’s hard for me to let go,
of someone I just want to hold me close.
But I realize It’s truly me that loves you most.

My therapist told me to write you a letter,
She said It would make me feel better.

But it just feels overwhelming seeing it all written down on the page,
cause you wont feel remorse you’ll only feel rage.
Like Im some prisoner in a cage.
You feel I deserve to be locked away.
And if I were you would be okay with it.

It’s pointless because I’m talking to a hypocrite.