Everybody is Watching me

So I see it on the internet
You're getting married today
I might just drop in
You know it's on my way

Everybody is watching me to see what I got
They think I'll be jealous but you know that I'm not

Because I want you to be happy more than anything else
I want to see you smile with someone even if it's not myself

Everybody is waiting to see me explode
They think I'll be so angry, that my feelings I won't hold

And maybe a few years ago
They might have been right
You with someone else
Would have me boiling at the sight
But I love you more
Than I ever loved myself
Even more now
That you're with someone else

Everybody is watching me to see if I cry
They would pay a million dollars to see a teardrop in my eye

Because people love to see
When a man like me falls
When a successful guy
Gets kicked in the balls

Everybody is watching me to see me fall apart
They know this wedding is a dagger to my heart

But I held it together and watched you drive away
I went to a bar and stayed drunk for three days
Every emotion flowing through my veins
Crying and anger, tears mixed with burning rage

But I needed that moment to accept that you were gone
I needed your wedding to convince my self to move on
Everybody was watching me to see who I was
Everybody was watching me